Ok, I'm back. Apparently. Sorry it took me so long, but I have finally come back to myself. Sort of. I have had a rough couple of months. A lot of turmoil, a lot of soul searching – a lot of which I was not ready to let loose into cyber space. Like some psycho chick, I had to let it grow and fester and turn me into a being I could hardly recognize. I watched myself spiral into fighting with God and not going to church, drinking from as early as is legally possible, and snapping and snarling and anyone who dared criticize my behavior. Knowing that what is happening to you is bad and should stop and actually having the will to do so are two totally different things, I have learned – and am still learning.
So my life sucks, but that does not mean my attitude should as well, right? Right! So I am taking the first steps in changing my mind set. I am getting that stupid sewing machine even if I really can't afford it right now. I need to start bringing out my creative side to help vent all this anger and frustration I feel. Plus, I am going to start writing again. I have been burying myself in books to avoid the chaos of my own meaningless existence and I have been reading some cheap crap! Surely I can write better than that! I know I can. So I am going to. Write crap. I am going to stop being my own worst critic and just write already! Just get it out there. The proofreading and editing can be done at the end. Let me just finish telling the damn story even if it doesn't turn out the way I had planned. Let me just get it all down on paper as I see it in my head.
So that's all for now. And when I hit a wall in my writing, I'll come here and vent. I'll try and keep it all PG13, but can't promise. I've been very angry and frustrated these past couple months, and apparently, it's all gotta come out somewhere! Some of it might end up here…
Either way, it will make for some good reading right….?
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