It is really hard sometimes for me to remember to look out for myself. I am always afraid I am going to come off as one of those needy neurotic people I look down on with distain. So self sufficiency is my game and putting others before myself and my needs my anthem. I have been trying to change that this year. I am trying really hard to make it all about me. Of course, I had not counted on the total lack of corporation from the rest of the world. Everything is conspiring against me. It is so damn hard not to wallow in self pity. Can't ONE THING jut work for me without me having to loose a gallon of blood over it? Does everything has to be a sacrifice that costs me part of my soul? Can't just one thing be easy?
I am not discounting hormones for this sudden overwhelming feeling of helplessness. I do feel very emotional right now. Like it is my time of the month – only it is not.
